Mourning together..

What's up, reader friends..

It is time for another blogpost today because so much unbelievable (to me) stuff happened yesterday that I feel like I just have to share it.

Last night we had our first "Grief" group at Crossroads church. Matt & I had seen the information about the group in the church bulletin a few weeks ago & we always knew we wanted to somehow get more involved in the church but never knew where or what & then the other big kicker was when -- we were always SO good at putting things off. However, given our situation, it felt more like there was no way we could not do this & we had to do it now. I went online that evening & registered before I gave myself the chance to change my mind or put it off any further.

Let me just say -- it is AMAZING & maybe even part freaky the way God works. After I signed up for the group, one of the leaders e-mailed asking for our information. I replied back & told her the key answers to her questions -- who we were grieving & when we lost them. She replied back & told me that her heart broke for us & that there was another couple facing a similar situation around the same timeframe. I will admit that did make me feel a lot better. When we first signed up I was worried it would be either all older people grieving a spouse or something to that effect & that maybe we wouldn't connect the same way. So last night, even walking in the room & having the other couple pointed out to us, I still kind of thought (sorry guys if you are reading this…) that I doubt that they went through anything like what we went through.  Clearly Satan was trying his best to keep me close minded & for awhile, it worked. We eventually broke off into smaller "like loss" groups where you'd break off with others who suffered your same loss of a spouse, loss of a child, etc. Once they had realized there were 2 couples going through our same type of loss, they asked a special leader to come in who had also faced a loss like ours so our group was the smallest of the small I believe with 5 of us in total. 2 couples, 1 leader. We started out by sharing our stories & for the next hour or so it was unreal the things we uncovered.

Here's how it shakes down:

They were 38 weeks pregnant when they lost their baby girl the DAY before us. She delivered at the same hospital -- in the same room!! She delivered naturally, so she was sent home Thursday MORNING. We were in the same room, on the same day, just with a break in the middle. As if that is not crazy enough that we were meeting someone SO VERY SIMILAR to our situation, the husband who does home improvement type construction is doing work right now on my doctors house. He (my doctor) knew that this couple was also expecting a baby & asked him how things were going with that just 2 days before & he had to give him the bad news. Friedman then told him that they had a similar situation happen at the practice just last month. CRAZY that they then met us 2 days later.

As you read this you may think I sound incredibly happy over what I'm sharing with you -- that I'm overly happy that there is another couple going through what we are going through & that there is something morbid in that but that's not it at all. I am happy that I have put my faith & trust in God & this is how He shows me He hears me & is working. No one else could have orchestrated such a meeting. I still have no idea what His plan is or why it has worked out the way it has..but I know His plan is in motion & we just have to be open to it. We will get there eventually.

I like to think that their baby girl was waiting at the gates of Heaven for Caleb to arrive.

I think I've hit you (or myself) with enough for now..I'll share more about what I took away from the Grief group in a later post.

much love. xoxo. CCF <3